Who am I…?

Posted in Uncategorized on December 31, 2013 by mindandmotive

My name is Christian White.

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This represents my professional resume, presented in two parts.

I live a professional duality of sorts; as I am an esoteric researcher and investigator, as well as an internet and territorial forensics expert.

I have worked professionally as both a forensics consultant, developer and investigator alongside local, state and federal law enforcement agencies on various high profile crimes and cases and I have also passionately dedicated over twenty years to exploring and documenting all areas of paranormal experience.

On the forensic side, I offer private and totally confidential consultations on all standard investigation platforms; such as missing persons cases, cold cases, active criminal investigations and surveillance work as well as offering a wide and highly customaizable spectrum of personal, legal, political and corporate intelligence and security packages.

I have specializations and field ops design and implentation, advanced pattern development skills and unorthodox serial pathology and profiling techniques.

On the esoteric side, I offer personal, confidential and always completely discreet paranormal and psychospritual consultations; including home or business visits, mediumship practices as well as varying unique intuitive services that can be made available upon individual request.

PART ONE

“FORENSIC AND INTELLIGENCE SPECIALIZATIONS”:

INTERNET FORENSICS

I developed and designed a highly brand new and highly adaptive investigational and predictive forensic methodology enabling raw informational pattern-development and intuitive deduction methodology that, along with our own GIS based predictive mapping tech can confidently establish conceptual physical forensic ‘roadmaps’ that can and have been applied to successful effect across such operative platforms as law enforcement, criminal profiling and pursuit, corporate security, political strategy as well as intelligence pursuits.

This form of Internet Forensics is best utilized in covert detection, serial criminal pathology, historical UNSUB cases, cold case files, criminal psychological and modus profiling, esoteric scientific and metaphysical investigations as well as intellectual property discovery and fraud investigations.

GIS PREDICTIVE MAPPING / GEOGRAPHICAL DATA ANALYSIS

This geographical discipline, developed alongside GIS expert Nic Hardisty, creates highly authentically predictive interactive mapping systems that can establish highly effective geographical and historical behavior paradigms which have been used both in the dissection and contextualization of past events as well as the predictive conceptualization of future human pathological motive and investigative patterns.

TERRITORIAL FORENSICS

I developed and pioneered this highly versatile territorial forensic mapping methodology which utilizes a spectrum of unique tools to successfully uncover even the most finite trace evidence and ephemeral area detail which capably illuminates even the most obsure human activities.

Using data drawn from everything scattered about an area of public use; from human refuse to grafitti to vehicular tracks, this one of a kind methodolgy offers an investigation platform of highly honed tracking orientation and mapping techniques.

These field tested techniques are specifically developed to be performed utilizing an extremely precise mix of thorough Native American Tracking Techniques partnered with state of the art field surveying technologies as well as aggressive intuitive discovery sensibilities I honed over years of practice and apprenticeship in various disciplines.

This new, customizable forensic tool is best applied in such platforms as missing persons cases, cold cases as well as intellectual informational and property discovery.

I also have specialization in both serial human criminal pathology and advanced pattern-development.

“CASEWORK AND EXPERIENCE”:

THE SOUTH COAST ‘HIGHWAY KILLER’ CASE

http://m.southcoasttoday.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080707/NEWS/807070337&template=wapart

I was able to personally process all existing data related to this twisted series of grisly, senseless killings of women.

From there, I researched and investigated new leads and implemented undercover field ops that led to the possibile exposure of a newly discovered serial murder suspect quite possibly still operating in Southeastern MA as well as the RI borderlands.

THE ‘SMILEY FACE KILLER’ CASE

http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/t/story?id=4738621&ref=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.google.com%2F

I spent well over a year directly and intimately involved in investigating, researching and rethinking the deeply mysterious and highly controversial ‘Smiley Face Killer’ series of drowning and disappearances, involving potentially well over 100 victims in both the US as well as Europe which has confounded law enforcement and the media for well over two decades.

My forensic methods have succesfully uncovered various new, highly useful clues and points of physical evidence that have been accepted into the legal caseflow for direct consideration of at least two potential victims of these alleged crimes.

I also developed an entirely seperate, case-wide theoretical hypothesis, which can be accessed here on this blog.

2012 ANTHONY GEMMA US CONGRESSIONAL CAMPAIGN

http://www.anthonygemmaforcongress.com

I served as one of the strategic advisors to US Congressional Candidate Anthony Gemma, in which I personally designed, implemented and performed a full intelligence and covert counter intelligence based investigational security detail for his 2012 United States congressional political campaign.

THE ‘BEARDED BANDIT’ CASE

http://www.myfoxboston.com/story/19587733/cops-person-of-interest-in-bearded-bandit-bank-robberies-caught

I professionally consulted and then subsequently closely assisted local, state and federal law enforcement agencies in the hunt for one of New England and America’s most prolific serial bank robbery suspects – ‘The Bearded Bandit’, who in one year robbed 9 federal institutions while alluing capture as well as justice.

In this investigation, I successfully implemented a mix of territorial and internet based forensic pattern development techniques as well as utilizing our own patented predictive interactive GIS mapping system which, after only nine days of work, led directly to the successful apprehension and subsequent conviction of the serial armed bank robbery fugitive Justin Worley, otherwise infamously known as ‘BEARDED BANDIT’.

An article covering our work supporting the apprehension of Federal fugitive – Justin Worley.

Media coverage via WPRI NEWS:

RI TEAM MAPS BEARDED BANDIT’S PATH
By Bill Tomlison
WPRI PROVIDENCE, R.I.

After nine bank robberies over the past few months, FBI officials say the Bearded Bandit is finally behind bars — and local law enforcement may have had a little help from a Rhode Island College student, recognizing the patterns.

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Like a gumshoe tracking Carmen Sandiego across the globe, RIC student Nic Hardesty used geography and online mapping software to help police anticipate the suspected bank robber’s next move.

It’s not GPS — which tracks where something is on the planet using satellites — but GIS, or a geographic information system, which logs geographic data and determines a pattern. Hardisty’s old geography professor, Seth Dixon, invited his former student to tell his story to a new map-tracking class Monday morning.

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“We predicted within about 600 feet the location of the bank he would hit,” Hardesty said. “We provided other information that we feel directly contributed to the capture.”

Hardisty had teamed up with his partner, internet forensics expert Christian White to use this GIS technology.

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The men found the Bandit was going into banks in the suburbs, not the city of Providence itself. That raised the question:

Was the Bandit even concerned about the Providence police force?

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Hardisty and Christian White then started simply considering the probable locations.

Most of the banks robbed had multiple routes to highways.

Furthermore, they were never in locations where there was a dead end.

Also, his foot escape path was always well planned and highly logical.

That kind of forethought — if it was consciously considered by the crook — could be why it took several months to zero in on the Bearded Bandit.

Next, they looked at what else was around the banks. One common neighbor not too far — a short walk, or run, from the banks — was a Rite Aid pharmacy.

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The Bandit was parking in Rite Aid parking lots and walking from there. Why? That remained to be seen, but they decided to go with it.

Based on that, they found five different potential next targets.

That was on Sept. 17.

The next day, two other financial institutions were held up. The markers for those holdups and two of Hardisty and White’s predictions match almost exactly.

Though there were extenuating circumstances in those cases, Hardisty said they felt their method was still working.

They got their data to police just a couple days before he was taken in.

Last week, Seekonk and East Providence Police arrested m. 33-year-old Justin Worley at a Seekonk motel — right after the detectives met to compare notes on the bandit’s capers.

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Worley soon confessed to the crimes credited to the Bearded Bandit. The beard was just a disguise, officers said.

“With a chain of crimes, GIS systems can break down where a criminal’s been going and where he or she will go next”, said Christian White.

“You can actually absolutely predict — with almost one hundred percent certainty — these people’s next move, and I think law enforcement is starting to see the potential in that,” he said.

“We think that the process we used is sound, and we think that we can apply it to most serial crimes,” added Hardisty.

Justin Worley was sentenced Friday July 24, 2013 in U.S. District Court in Providence to 6 years, one month in Federal Prison.

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/justin-worley-ri-bearded-bandit-gets-6-years-in-prison-in-series-of-bank-robberies/

He plead guilty in March to last year’s robberies of eight banks in Rhode Island and one in Massachusetts.

He has never testified or commented publically to this day.

All told, Worley’s nine robberies netted about $32000.

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Here is another article covering the forensics and predictive GIS mapping systems Nic Hardisty and I developed for successful use in this apprehension as well as in possible future serial criminal pathology cases similar to ‘The Bearded Bandit’:

http://geographyeducation.org/courses/mapping-our-changing-world-geog-201/geocoding-in-the-news/

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PART TWO:

“ESOTERIC PROJECTS”

As an esoteric researcher and investigator within the paranormal industry, I have been lucky to have visited and investigated many infamous as well as unknown ‘highly active’ locations all over the world and I have apprenticed, observed and assisted with numerous cases of Spiritual Contact, Vampirism, Ufology, Demonology, Possession, Profound Hauntings, and other related Parapsychological and Psychospiritual Events.

I am a practiced and experienced professional within these sometimes highly subjective areas and understand the dramatic personal effects these cases can have on those who believe they are in contact with it.

I am an empathic person and do also offer selective mediumship on a case by case basis.

I have extensively researched and investigated manifestational and spiritual presences and hauntings within domestic residences, commercial properties and abandoned as well natural environments.

I also have confidentially worked for many years as a consultant and researcher for the US Federal Government on numerous Esoteric Projects and ThinkTanks.

I am truly personally and professionally dedicated to this incredible field of paranormal study and experience and I have been blessed to have studied with many notable experts.

I consider myself highly skilled, psychically intuitive and, most importantly, I treat every case with truth, openness, the utmost professionalism, decency, respect and intelligence.

I am also completely discreet in all ways, and all discussions, consultations and arrangements are kept 100% completely and entirely private, confidential and protected at all times.

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In 2010, Jason Mayoh, Brian Harnois and I developed and produced a three part paranormal televsion series for the PBS network.

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I co-produced and created, as well as edited, researched and appeared in three seperate sixty minute episodes of the televison show ‘HAUNTED RI’…

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The pilot episode, which premiered in September of 2011 to record viewing numbers has continued to air on various PBS affiliates, as have the subsequent two parts of the series.

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The episodes include comprehensive segments on legends such as the supposed 19 year old ‘vampire’ Mercy Brown, The famed “Night Watchman Ghost”, Peleg Walker and even the the infamous Ramtail Mill itself, which even while having burned to the ground over a century ago, still can be said to be heard spectrally operating deep within in the miasma of dense, old forest growing wild in the wilds of legendary Foster, RI.

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Here is a 6 minute segment from the pilot episode of ‘Haunted RI:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ISA1B8v6SF8&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DISA1B8v6SF8

And here is another link to an article, courtesy of The Warwick Beacon, which covers the genesis of the PBS series – ‘HAUNTED RI’:

http://warwickonline.com/stories/The-history-of-RIs-hauntings,62483

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In 2011, Jason Mayoh and I also co-produced a feature length documentary for PBS on one of New England’s most mythic characters…a woman named Dolorthy Ellen Cole, whose tall tales amazingly still linger on into our modern minds and age.

Jason and I had come across countless stories of this mysterious woman, dead for over a century, who was said to have been steeped in the dark arts and who now is rumored to appear to many locals as a ghostly harbinger of malice, witchcraft and magic.

These long passed down stories and whispers have become –

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http://www.examiner.com/article/haunted-ri-the-legends-of-dolly-cole-to-premiere-on-pbs-on-saturday-may-5

On this PBS project, I served as co-producer, researcher, writer and editor of a dissection of folklore and historical detail surrounding a mysterious woman named “Dolly Cole”, who some say was a witch, or a vampire, or even a murdered prostitute who dressed in men’s clothing.

The documentary also set out to express a new understanding of not just the storied myths that make us who we are, but of the true nature and very reality of witchcraft as it existed and still exists in rural New England…then and now.

The film originally aired in May of 2012 and continues to air on various PBS affiliates to this day.

Here is the teaser trailer for the film:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ACvq1x4YSmk&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DACvq1x4YSmk

And, here is a clip from the film:

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8sO34_rvcew&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3D8sO34_rvcew

DVDs of the 3 part PBS series ‘HAUNTED RI’ as well as the PBS documentary ‘THE LEGENDS OF DOLLY COLE’ are available upon request.

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In 2011, I worked on a confidential 8 month research project funded by the US Federal Government.

Although I cannot speak on the specific context of the research I was performing, I can openly display the 4 volumes of intel and data I collected and arranged which served as the backbone of my ultimate findings, opinion and report.

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Drawn from this 1800+ research bible, and in part from my personal contacts, access and unorecedented experiences during this time, I wrote a ‘unifying theory’ of modern ufology entitled –

“The Last Days of Dreamland”

Here is a link to the document, in its entirety:

https://mindandmotive.files.wordpress.com/2012/10/dreamland2.docx

And, for those interested, here are links to my ufology research bible:

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/66/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/birdplay/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/kill-the-messenger/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/zeta4/

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Here is a recent article profiling my paranormal experiences which was featured in the September 2013 issue of RI Monthly Magazine:

HAUNTED SPACES, DARK PLACES

by Erin Swanson

PBS’s HAUNTED RI allowed viewers to explore the Ocean State’s spookiest settings from the safety of their own living rooms. From legends of witches and vampires to tales of murders and exhumations, each episode evoked both terror and curiosity:

Do spirit ghosts truly exist?

The television show’s co-producer Christian White was kind enough to take me on an unforgettable esoteric tour to five of Rhode Island’s most actively haunted spots.

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We began in Providence by heading west on Atwells Avenue towards the highway overpass that marks the boundary between the city’s most lively dining strip and one of its greatest haunted locales.

We turned right onto Eagle Street and traversed the Woonasquatucket River, arriving at the ominous Butcher Block Mills.

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“We’ve crossed water, a bridge and train tracks,” White said.

“All three signal you’re entering into someplace bad.”

It’s no coincidence that the historic mill is located on Eagle Street either; the eagle is a totemic animal, having potential to emblemize a spirit clan.

Some believe an unsolved murder was committed here in 2010 and the body tossed into the river.

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The 200-acre Swan Point Cemetery on Providence’s Blackstone Boulevard dates back to 1846 when a man named Thomas Hartshorn purchased its first 59.5 acres of land.

Recently, while examining photos, cemetery personnel were shocked to see that all three of Hartshorn’s children died in 1845.

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“Of course there are ghosts here,” White said.

“People come to cemeteries to mourn, which gives off a concentrated current, much like electricity, upon which spirits can attach themselves.”

We hopped in the car and drove south to the Chestnut Hill Baptist Church Cemetery in Exeter where alleged vampire Mercy Lena Brown is buried.

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When we rolled to a stop on a long dirt road less than a mile from our destination, a salt-of-the-Earth farmer peered into the car with a knowing smirk.

“You must be looking for Mercy Brown,” he said.

“You can’t miss her…She’s right by the tree.”

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Once there, I noticed that the grass around her grave was worn to dirt, her headstone adorned with flowers and candy.

As I attempted to snap a photo, my iPhone suddenly froze.

“I’d put that away if I were you,” White warned.

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“Lena hates having her picture taken.”

We headed next to Newport’s Cliff Walk, where White divulged the legend of the lady in the red dress.

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“Supposedly, a young woman committed suicide here after stabbing her husband up on Bellevue,” he said.

“When the tide is low, a woman with long black hair appears at the point.” Prior to learning of the tale, White was walking the path with friends one evening when he heard a female whisper.

“There was no breeze or wind that night and the voice was unmistakable. We all recognized the sound at once…very, very chilling.”

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Exhausted, we made the trek back north to Woonsocket’s Precious Blood Cemetery, the resting place of Marie Rose Ferron, the stigmatized martyr who died in 1936 with a crown of thorns around her head and blood pouring from her eyes.

The cemetery is also the site of an eminently grisly incident.

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“In the 1950s, a hurricane hit Rhode Island and this whole back corner beside the pond flooded out,” White explained as I viewed the graves still marked by simple wooden crosses.

“Caskets broke open and bodies just washed away.”

The pond seemed so peaceful yet held so many tragic secrets…

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A simple metaphor for a complex world.

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If you would like any further information on any services I provide, past investigations or for any info on personal or professional consultations of all kinds…

Please feel free to contact me at any time –

Nopositive@aol.com

thank you,

Christian White
Providence, RI

“…THE GIRLZ…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 23, 2013 by mindandmotive

for zaydee.

remember –

‘…fear is the heart of love…’

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*a note:

(sniffle)

“UCUS”

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Psalm 139 –

“…Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written…

The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them…”

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This is my 100th Post for MindandMotive.

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And it is also my last.

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However, I have condensed the whole thing down to 5 parts…

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100 individual posts…

That tell –

one story

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A story about “ALCHEMY”.

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Just as it is also a story of a girl named –

Kiirsten Shelby Black.

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As it is also a story of a girl named –

“Malia”.

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And…as it is also the story of “Me” and my time with –

The Girlz.

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I had a blast living this last year…and documenting it.

And I am so excited for whatever is to come – next.

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“…I TEGO ARCANA DEI…”

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“THE GIRLZ”
a story about “family”

the following takes place between:
10/07/2012 – 11/21/2013

My name is Christian White.

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I hereby declare that, to the best of my conscious knowledge, the following story is “true”.

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And it is a “true story” that has not only changed my life –

forever…

But, it has also fully changed “ME”, and in every conceivable way.

So…before we begin…

A KnockKnock Joke –

‘Knock Knock…’

who’s there…?

‘Orange…’

Orange, who…?

‘Orange you glad im not a Banana…?’

“SMILE”

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So.

It was…October 7th, 2012.

And, it was 11:59PM.

An email arrives into my AOL box…

apparently from myself.

All it said was –

“Psalm 139…from one WASP to another…”

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One year later…at a literal molecular level –

My life and my very reality have CHANGED.

Completely and irrevocably.

And, in this “truth”, I know that I will never look back.

After all, I simply can’t.

As we all know, in life, there are some decisions we choose to make, in the spirit of “free will”, that we choose to make, fully aware that they are decisions that can never be unmade.

Decisions we make that live on, parallel to our own lives, as though inhabiting lives of their own.

Decisions requiring an innoculation against these very human concepts of “past” and “future”.

Due to decisions such as these, I now live in a perfek, permanent present tense.

And I am, for that…infintely blessed.

Because the very fabric of our lives are woven by the right and courage we persevere through, in making such decisions…

For “good” or for “bad”…

and

For “Black” or for “White”…

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So, with that said –

This “true story” is dedicated to 2 perfek girlz –

Kiirsten.

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And –

Malia.

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“My Girlz.”

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part ONE:
“…hehehee…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/22/hehehee/

part TWO:
“…who is mike mulugeta?…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/21/who-was-mike-mulugeta/

part THREE:
“…sparrows…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/22/sparrows/

part FOUR:
“…G0D of the UnderWurld…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/11/we-are-not-2-we-are-1/

part FIVE:
“…The D0G…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/22/allu

The End…?

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Thank you to all my girlz for this year of MAGICK.

And thank you to Becky for being my SUNSHINE..

and my Mum for being my Mum.

No matter what.

and thank you always to my Kiirsten and to my Malia…

“family”.

Never, ever forget that…

xoxo.

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And thank you, all else, for supporting my wurk.

It meant and means a lot to me.

Keep your eyez open…

“Its all happening…”

“See you on the next page…”

– CW.

“…soph…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 22, 2013 by mindandmotive

“i am tied…

to the whipping post –

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tied…

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to the whipping post –

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oh lord, i feel like im dyin’…”

via gnosis.org

CHAPTER 13.

“…And I left that region behind me and came to
the gate of the second sphere, which is the Fate…

Then were all its gates thrown into agitation and opened of themselves.

And I entered into the houses of the Fate, shining most exceedingly, and there was no measure for the light that was about me, for I shone in the Fate forty-and-nine times more than in the first sphere.

The powers of the second sphere are amazed and fall down and adore him.

And all the rulers and all those who are in the Fate, were thrown into agitation and fell on one another and were in exceeding great fear on seeing the great light that was about me. And they gazed on my vesture of light and saw the mystery of their name on my vesture and fell into still greater agitation; and they were in great fear, saying:

‘How hath the lord of the universe passed through us without our knowing?’

And all the bonds of their regions and of their orders and of their houses were unloosed; they all came at once, fell down, adored before me and sang praises all together to the interiors of the interiors –

…being in great fear and great agitation.”

xo.

for sophia.

“…sparrows…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 22, 2013 by mindandmotive

‘Sparrows’ are girlz born with a very complex genetic persuasion towards dark rebellious undercurrent associations…

They are raw and vital girlz…

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Lust and Khaos…

These girlz have a giggle that rides the breeze and these girlz smell so damn good and all the time, like Ancient Egypt and like fresh sweat or wilting flowers or sort of like heat or distant smoke and fire…

These are mythic girlz, simply built with a combination of unusually highly intuitive, if not manipulative selfawareness and ravenous sexual and emotional appetites…

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they also be lethal…

blessed with razor edged, feral charms.

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These girlz are natural born troublemakers.

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And these girlz are nearly impossible to resist.

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These be –

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“Wild Girlz”.

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They, The Sparrows, are the pack that surrounds the pride.

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They, essentially, “hunt and gather”…

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But, they also need to EAT…

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So, they have honed their skills, as sharp as knives.

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I have come to know a few local, yet notorious ‘sparrows’, who live amongst the vampirez of the WestSide and I have found them to be loyal, methodical, efficient, always game for a game…

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and, they are as predatory…

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As they are lovely.

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‘blood is funny’…

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“hehehee”

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“Ely” is the ‘sparrow’ for our family, here on the WestSide.

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She is one of the most amazing girlz i have ever met…

She is “Aces”, as the other girlz say.

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A reckoning on a pink skateboard.

Cute as a button…

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And stone cold.

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She has also become, over the years, Malia and Kiirsten’s closest “alie” –

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which means…

protector and – true friend.

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And, she is a real “beast” when action is called for.

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’til the bitter end.

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The girlz are adorable, actually…

Even if they hate it when I say such things.

Lili, Ely and little Malia…

the “jewel”…

and to whom i give my very life so to see her THRIVE.

“Love” and “Trust”.

ALCHEMY…

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Lili, Ely and Malia…

This is a gang of 3.

Pocketknives, giggling swagger, secret languages…

And new names each and every day.

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‘Ely’ is a sparrow, from heart to head to blood to bone.

Where Lili and Malia are not.

They are Vampirez.

I have learned so much them, and from their perfek sparrow, Ely, and every night i take so much wisdom and fear from from her seemingly unlimited and uninhibited instincts and fearlessness.

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Ely…

A Wild Girl…

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She and I have had some differences in the past…

But, I have come to respect her entirely.

“Ely” is as proud and as cool and as graceful and as beautiful, funny, natural, free and truly unreal as wild girlz get.

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They are, these “sparrows”, in so many wayz,

‘the lilitu’ – physically incarnate…

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They are, in fact, “The Succubi”, of myth and legend…

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So, to better illustrate the mind and heart of the ‘sparrow’ –

I have collected 5 stories of 5 very infamous girlz…

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Wild Girlz, born over the embers of a churning century…

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Rising up, grinning, scheming…

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These are 5 Stories following the course
of this last century…

These are the stories of…

Mercy –

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Mary –

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Blanche –

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Mandy –

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and Naddy –

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https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/22/mercy/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/mary-bell-3/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/10/31/outcasts/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/02/the-littlest-one/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/09/no-pasaran/

xo.

for ely…

real wild girl and a true friend.

thank you for being so open and for giving me a chance.

“…zarir zada…”

ps.

here are a few posts regarding my year with “The Girlz” –

“Lili, Ely and Malia…”

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/09/nyx/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/06/lilli/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/11/22/soph/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/09/27/the-7-laws/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/05/03/the-tourist/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/05/22/hands/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/10/05/vampire-girlz/

‘bad boyz 4 life’

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xoxo.

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“ZERO FUX GIVEN”

“…Allu…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 22, 2013 by mindandmotive

this year, i became a D0G.

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It is the greatest honor of this, my new life.

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This new nature, this new life –

One, I asked for…

And a blessing of a new life that I was given

And that I earned…

Giving to get…

The rarest of gifts.

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Sort of like…

“Trust”.

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Or “Love”.

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first, a year ago or so…

to “the girlz” i was just another “gadje” –

an ‘outsider’.

or, as they say –

“a shiny”…

Nothing more than another dumb boy,

mere food for a giggle, lost on the breeze.

But, I made a different choice.

To live…

and to learn.

So, in trade, I had to “earn”.

‘Zarir Zada’, the girlz would say.

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“give to get”.

And so i did.

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I gave them all that I possessed –

which was my heart and whatever was left of my mind.

And then –

i ran with them.

The Wild Girlz…

No matter what.

Me and these girlz…

in deep winter…

through dark, dark nights…

laughter and fear…

We became “Family”….

And soon, I became –

Their Dog.

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“…The “Allu” is a horrible apparition half human, half animal.

It is sometimes represented as being without mouth, limbs, or ears. Roaming through the streets like a pariah dog, it hides in dark corners, or haunts ruins and deserted buildings.

It is probably conceived to be the offspring of Lilîtu or Ardat Lilî and of some man to whom she has attached herself.

The latter conception is frequently found in Rabbinic stories which tell of the evil spirits which Lilith bore to Adam.

Alu is a translation of the Sumerian Gallu, which signifies ‘tempest’, and especially a tempest caused by the south wind.

It is also the name of the celestial bull, created by Anu to avenge his daughter Ishtar, which was killed by Gilgamesh and Eabani.

The bull is the usual personification of the tempest….”

So…

This was, and is, an honor…

For an ‘outsider’.

‘parau svertkum’, they called me.

‘The Pariah Dog’…known in Assyrian and Akkadian
myth to be loyal to one, and only one, master –

“Ereshkigal”.

or, as we know her now…

“LILITH”.

But like many tales these wild girlz tell,

this was only half true.

This dog –

“Allu”…served TWO masters.

LILITH and her sister –

“SOPHIA”.

ist ben allu
ist ben allu naqtal al diente
ist ben parau svertkum
ist ben allu en memorium…

Kiirsten is a daughter of SOPHIA.

Just as Malia is a daughter of LILITH.

They are Body and Blood.

Together.

As 1.

As it is above –

As it is so…below.

As it is, in Life and Death, itself.

ONE.

And so, for them…and for ever –

for my girlz…

kiirsten and malia…

i will walk the night with them…

and i will fly their banners…

and i will wear their symbols…

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inside and out…

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“the teeth” and “the bite”…

“heart” and “mind”…

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Also –

Did you know, that in modern science…

‘Alu’ is another term for –

“Junk DNA”.

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Here is an introduction to ‘Alu’, in our “modern age”…

http://www.nature.com/scitable/topicpage/functions-and-utility-of-alu-jumping-genes-561

‘I am “…Allu…”
I am the teeth of the night.
I am the wandering D0G.
I am Allu, just as I have always been
and always will be…’

So, now…

Black is White.

White is Black.

Everything, like in alchemy

Has changed.

I have found my calling.

My “obligation” to the girlz.

And to my “obligation” to Lili, my perfect teacher.

And to my “obligation” to Soph, my trusted guardian…

And…

To G0D.

Even if He is a cranky old man.

He believed in me.

Even when I was afraid to believe in Him.

And I believe it is time for a family reunion…

So.

For all of them, this new “family”…

I am proudly – ‘Allu’.

a D0G.

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‘And ill be Howling forever with you…’

Everyone loves a happy ending…

so…SMILE.

xo.

“…mercy…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 22, 2013 by mindandmotive

“On January 17th, our beloved Mercy passed on to meet Jesus and join her mother and sister in paradise…

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Funeral will be held at Chestnut Hill Cemetery in the spring, when the conditions are right enough for a proper burial…”

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This all began…

a storm rising up in the blood of wild girlz –

over a century ago.

Here is the ‘story’ of Lena Brown, as it is often told…

via gothicembrace.blogspot.com

“…Consumption, as it was then called, ran amok in those perilous times; often killing entire families within a matter of months.

With no way to know that so many deaths had been caused by
a virus– Tuberculosis to be exact, frightened families and individuals turned to superstition and the supernatural in their attempts to stem the steady march of death toward their very doorsteps.

At the time, it was believed by many that consumption was caused by attacks of the undead — vampires — deceased family members who had returned from the grave to drink the blood of their former loved ones.

The Brown’s were a farming family that lived in the small town of Exeter, Rhode Island during that time period. Its members consisted of father George, mother Mary, a daughter also named Mary, a son known as Edwin and two other children in addition to daughter Mercy.

During the 1880’s, tragedy first struck the family when wife and mother Mary lost her life to the disease on December 8, 1883.

Almost exactly six months later, consumption claimed the life of the couple’s daughter Mary on June 6, 1883.

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She was only 19 years of age.

Early in the next decade the Brown family’s only known son, 24-year old Edwin, contracted the disease. Desperate to find a cure for his progeny, George Brown took him west to Colorado, where the young man appeared to make gains toward recovering his health.

Unbeknown to the absent father and son, the disease continued to wreak havoc upon the family and on January 17, 1892 Mercy, whose primary desire had been to marry and raise a family, succumbed to the disease.

Due to the severity of the winter, her body was placed in an above-ground crypt until a proper burial could be conducted after the arrival of spring–a common practice at that time.

After father and son returned to Exeter, Edwin’s condition once again began to deteriorate; According to the website entitled, Mercy Brown: New England’s Vampire Legend, the dying young man claimed that one night, he felt his deceased sister Mercy sitting on his chest, attempting to draw the remaining life out of him.

At the same time, rumors had begun circulating among the local townsfolk and reports of sightings were spreading.

Some claimed to have seen Mercy walking among the graves in the cemetery; others had allegedly, spotted her meandering across local farmlands. Surely, Mercy Brown is a vampire, local residents thought, a member of the undead who has returned from the grave to claim the lives of her entire family
member by member…

The constant talk by the townspeople forced George Brown to take drastic action. He would discover whether Mercy was indeed a vampire and if she were, he would do what was necessary to save Edwin and the rest of his family.

After requesting the assistance of a physician from nearby Wickford known only as a Dr. Metcalf, Brown and his assistant set about the task of examining, first the bodies of his deceased wife and daughter, then that of Mercy, which was still above ground in the crypt.

After digging up the graves of both mother and daughter, it was determined that neither was a vampire because both bodies were decomposing as would be expected.

Still, when the two next opened the crypt and gazed in at the remains of Mercy, it was discovered that not only had her body changed position inside the coffin, but her face was flush, her skin had not decomposed and most importantly, her nails and hair had continued to grow. Obviously, the unfortunate Mercy Brown was a vampire determined to draw the life out of her entire family…

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Filled with fear, both men knew what had to be done. Quickly, they cut open Mercy’s body and examined her organs–organs that still dripped with liquid blood.

In order to guarantee that she would never rise from the grave again, they burned her heart on a nearby rock and gave the ashes to Edwin to eat.

In those days it was believed that consuming a vampire’s ashes would bring an end to the curse of death. In the case of young Edwin however, it didn’t work and shortly after the event, he passed from this world.

Mercy Brown was soon given a proper burial and she was permanently laid to rest under a gravestone that bears her name to this very day.

She is interned in Exeter’s Chestnut Hill Cemetery
along with her other family members.

It’s easy to pass off the unfortunate circumstances surrounding Mercy Brown as a lack of medical knowledge and of falling prey to fear and superstition.

Yet, even today there are those who say that you can sometimes see her ghostly form ff you visit her final resting place under the cover of darkness.

Wherever the truth lies on this matter, Mercy Brown’s burial site continues to attract both local visitors and those from afar. Her name and legend continue to live on throughout the centuries…”

But, there is another story of Lena…

She…

One of the Wild Girlz…

Waking up in cold earth,

and clawing her way up,

through the mud,

and into the sun and warmth of life.

Just like all of us.

Searching for Mercy in a Merciless wurld.

i recently had a very cathartic day visiting my old friend lena brown in exeter, ri.

she was, and is, as catty as ever, as playful and proud as ever, with a strangely out of time sarcasm and mocking tone that is very, very affectionate in a very weird way…

there we were, lena and me, in the beautiful fading afternoon light as she finally relaxed and held my hand for a moment.

She, to me, is so special.

after all, she is a 19 year old girl.

And –

a legend.

well, a 124 year old 19 year old girl and legend..

but, who’s counting?

and lena was thrilled when i unwrapped a lolipop for her
that someone had left by her gravestone.

she even offered to let me take the first taste in return for the favor, but, also out of dubious respect…

however, as i could tell the offer was only in principle –

i declined, with a grin…

full disclosure, i covered the story of ‘mercy’ lena brown
as part of a documentary i produced for PBS in 2011.

i regret the way i covered her story then, and now that
i know her, i want to try to tell her own tale, her way, the way she told it to me, which is something no one has ever been able to do.

she is a girl who, in her time, did some terrible things.

But what lena did was purely in her nature.

Her genes.

Her blood

i think lena was also just born fast and wild, a sparrow, and she was born out of time and maybe just wanted the one thing a 19 year old girl could NOT have, in her own prison of that particular time and place –

freedom.

if she lived now, lena would probably have blue hair, a chip on her shoulder, leather pants and a switchblade.

she’d be as dangerous now,

as she must have been then.

absolutely lethal.

but in all the best wayz.

like all wild girlz…

And –

she probably would have died young, no matter what.

i mean, after all…

she was a vampire.

and more to the point, she was, and still is, a siren, and a mouthy troublemaker.

which meltz my heart.

and makes girlz like lena so perfect and so dangerous.

And…

which is why, i guess, she and i get along.

so, i did not snap one picture of her during my visit.

Nor will I ever.

and why would i need to?

she hates having her picture taken.

No lens could ever capture her legendary status.

She is one of the wurld’s most famous wild girlz.

dead or alive.

Also –

lena was a seed…

A seed of Lilith…

And She was a seed in the fields of a new Eden now blossoming.

And I imagine she was so suppressed, in her time…

the last time i visited, when lena and i were waving goodbye, i was again stung that no matter how many times i ask her to
leave that place; that dusty cemetary in exeter,
to come ‘home’ with me…

she never will.

after all, she is the most popular girl there.

And…

that is over a century AFTER she died.

lena brown is a fucking vampire’s ghost.

and that…is lena’s middle finger to the world.

And why would i ever want to deprive her of that?

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xo.

‘for lena.’

‘for the beginning…’

“…hehehee…”

Posted in Uncategorized on November 22, 2013 by mindandmotive

“…SMK (The SMILEY FACE KILLER) has indeed struck again…

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Some people say the SFK name is dead…

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Someone (not me) finds that attitude quite funny…

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Greg Hart’s family does not…

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and neither do many others…

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“He, Hu, Hu, Ha, Ho, Ha, Ha,”

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“…And I thought my jokes were bad…”

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Alex Heidengren Lake He 8/13/2009
Alex Humphries Missing Hu 10/12/2009
William Hurley River Hu 10/31/2009

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10/31/2009 Morgan Harrington Field Ha
11/21/2009 Devon Hollohan River Ho
2/24/2010 Jonathan Havron River Ha

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3/14/2010 Greg Hart River Ha…”

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via godlikeproductions.com
poster: “AC” – 03/20/2010 12:54 PM

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“hehehee”

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Ive spent a year of my life exploring, researching, documenting and investigating the mysterious deaths of Gregory Hart and, later, Sunil Tripathi and trying like hell to understand simply WHY the deaths occured…

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no matter if they were, or even are, related to “foul play” or not.

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And, in this pursuit, many times i have wished RIP to Greg Hart…here, in my writings, and in the quiet of my own mind.

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But, a year into this entire investigation…

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i have finally realized that, in actuality, i don’t feel there is any more reason to do so…

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and i do not mean that in a cruel or dispasssionate way.

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i say this is because i absolutely now feel there is no need to wish “rest” for the late Greg Hart…

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And why do i feel this way…?

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Because, frankly…

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Greg Hart is, in my opinion and experience –

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no more.

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Ans Greg Hart is now –

nowhere.

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No ghost.

No ‘afterlife’…

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Greg Hart is simply –

Gone.

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via smileyfacekillers.blogspot.com

“…The drainage tunnels near where Abel Bolanos died in March 2007 contain several distinct graffiti tags, including two “Smiley Faces,” in a monkey’s nose and in the letter “D,” but nothing about the symbols was overtly referential to Bolanos or any of the other drownings…

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A group of retired detectives and academics who have suggested that 40 drowning deaths in 11 states are the work of a group of serial killers had previously been in Ames investigating the death of Abel Bolanos.

Bolanos drowned in March 2007 in Lake LaVerne on the Iowa State University campus.

Reports say Bolanos was last seen at a party on North Hyland Avenue on March 31, which he left at 4 a.m.

He was found April 3 by a dive team after a three-day search.

It’s unknown whether Bolanos is one of the 40 names on the list of supposed drownings the group claims are “clearly homicides and linked to each other,” according to a press release. However, according to ISU’s Department of Public Safety Police Division, the same group was in town a few weeks ago to speak with a patrol supervisor about the case, which one of them last year told The Tribune fit the profile of the supposed serial killings.

Local police and county officials have rejected the idea Bolanos’ death was anything but an accidental drowning and say the group has never spoken to the local investigator in charge of the case or seen any of the primary investigative materials collected by police.

On Monday, the group, “Nationwide Investigations,” appeared on ABC’s “Good Morning America” and held a press conference in New York City with several of the victim’s families, asking for help from the FBI to investigate the suspected murders.

The group’s theory is that a gang of organized killers murder college-aged men and stage drownings to avoid capture. The group recently announced it believes the alleged gang leaves graffiti tags near the locations of the bodies, often a “Smiley Face” insignia.

The drainage tunnels near where Bolanos died contain several distinct graffiti tags, including two “Smiley Faces,” but nothing about the symbols was overtly referential to Bolanos or any of the other drownings.

Following the Nationwide Investigations media appearances this week, the FBI issued a press release saying its investigators had reviewed the evidence presented by the group and not found anything connecting the deaths or indicating the involvement of a serial killer or killers.

Nationwide Investigations is made up of two former New York Police Department detectives, Kevin Gannon and Anthony Duarte; a professor from St. Cloud State University, Lee Gilbertson; and a graduate student from the same college, Adam Carlson.

The group has claimed to have uncovered evidence connecting 40 alleged accidental drownings in 11 states. It reportedly has asked the FBI to investigate the matter.

Bolanos is thought to have drowned while highly intoxicated – a trait the group says is common among all the victims.

Abel Bolanos’ sister, Marivelle Bolanos, said she has never spoken to any of the investigators but has heard about the story on television. However, the family does believe there are unanswered questions related to Abel Bolanos’ death and has offered a reward for information about the case.

Marivelle Bolanos said she plans to contact the investigators in the future and would like to donate money to their investigation.

News reports mentioned that the group had “run out of money,” after financing the investigation itself.

“I was just making notes yesterday of the things we still have questions on,” she said. “We are not 100 percent sure of what happened.”

From a police perspective, however, the case has been closed on Bolanos’ death. Gene Deisinger, the ISU police captain who acted as the case agent in charge of investigating the incident, said the evidence in the case points firmly to an accidental drowning, a conclusion based upon the results of the state medical examiner’s investigation.

“You always have to be driven by the evidence in a case like this, and it was the observation of those of us in investigations that worked the case that there was nothing about the situation or Abel’s body that indicated that he died as a result of an intentional attack,” Deisinger said.

“I cannot say that he was not assaulted. I can only say that there was no evidence to indicate that he was assaulted.”

Moreover, Deisinger said, if the group had investigated Bolanos’ death, it had done so without speaking to him or reviewing any of the primary investigation materials. And if it had uncovered any gang signs or tags connecting Bolanos’ death to the others, it hadn’t shared them with police.

Story County Attorney Stephen Holmes said he also was aware of the group’s theory and had heard it as connected to Bolanos’ death, but had dismissed it as nothing more than a stretch for sensationalism’s sake.

“I think it’s terrible to tout this kind of thing,” he said. “To me, this is junk science or sensationalism. It’s not real police work.”

A Tribune reporter accompanied the group around Ames last summer was it knocked on doors, walked the path around Lake LaVerne and even entered a drainage pipe to look for strange tags or symbols.

At the time, Gilbertson was quoted as saying Bolanos was a perfect fit for the profile of a victim of the alleged serial killer group.

According to Tribune reports, the two detectives spent more than an hour in the drainage tunnels near Lake LaVerne searching for tags.

Phone calls and e-mail messages to the group this week have not been returned.

Luke Jennett can be reached at 232-2161, Ext. 343, or ljennett@amestrib.com…”

via “boyinthemachine”

“…As per the second pic, is it ‘ACllD’?

The weathering would indicate age, unless the surface just wasn’t sufficient to hold the pigment.

Thanks for posting these.

I wonder if the blog owner or anyone reading this, knows of the guy on youtube who is uploading clips of ‘graffiti’ supposedly taken from the death sites, as well as coming up with wild, convuluted meanings for it involving Superman, CSI, and other tv shows. Weird.

I don’t believe him, but was wondering if anybody saw this graffiti in the area or if he is simply making it up…

Duh! It just dawned on me what this was…

ACIID = Acid (but w/ 2 ‘I’s)

I googled it and there is a forum for hackers called Aciid.

http://www.aciidforums.com/

There are also several people using the screen name of ‘aciid’.

Interesting…”

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So…

Greg and Sunil…

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These two boys, who most probably never, in life knew of eachother, are now entwined as one unified cog in the wheel of arcane ritualz, thousands of years in the making…

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Ritualz…

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Greg Hart did not choose to partake in.

Ritualz, for which, Greg Hart was – however –

chosen.

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For instance, take the name – Greg “Hart”.

A “Hart” is a nocturnal deer.

Again, highly symbolic.

In certain circles, that is.

To some…

“The Stag: is a symbol of ‘The Harvest’.

which runs september to april

MABON is the season in which the harvest is being gathered. It’s also the time in which the hunt often begins — deer and other animals are killed during the autumn in many parts of the world.

In some Pagan and Wiccan traditions, the deer is highly symbolic, and takes on many aspects of the God during the harvest season….”

Not to mention –

“The White Stag”.

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“…The white stag is a familiar creature of myth and legend. Its origins are likely in the totemic period of early Indo-European society, particularly the northern societies of the Celts and pre-Indo-European cultures, whose subsistence was gained not only through agriculture, but through hunting. This dependence on deer may be seen in the zoomorphic Celtic god Cernunnos, depicted as being a man with the antlers of a deer.

The white stag in Celtic myth is an indicator that the Otherworld is near.

It appears when one is transgressing a taboo –

such as when Pwyll tresspassed into Arawn’s hunting grounds,
or when Peredur entered the Castle of Wonders in his second adventure at the house of the Lame King.

It also appears as an impetus to quest–the white stag or hart often appears in the forests around King Arthur’s court, sending the knights off on to adventure against gods and fairies. (C. S. Lewis uses this device at both the beginning and end of The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.

It also appears in French romance and lais as a similar indicator, such as in the lais of Marie de France, when Guigemar happens upon the strange sight of a white doe with antlers. He wounds the strange, hermaphroditic–note that word–animal, which curses him to grow up and fall in love. It is also an important element of Hungarian mythology, which believed that a great white stag led the brothers Hunor and Magar to settle in Scythia.

Thus were established the Huns and Magyars.

To Christians, the white stag came to symbolize Christ, perhaps in part inspired by the St. Eustace legend, wherein the Roman soldier Eustace is hunting, and happens upon a deer with a cross between his antlers. Eustace converts on the spot, and is put through numerous tragedies, persecutions, etc., including the death of his family, until being miraculously reunited with them. However, it is clear that this pious legend has pagan predecessors.

It is also worth noting that in Christian iconography, the unicorn is a symbol for Christ.

There is a close identification between the white stag and the unicorn, and it can be reasoned that the white stag is the equivalent of the unicorn in these northern cultures, which do not record the existence of unicorns.

The white hart also was the heraldic symbol of England’s King Richard II.

The first thing to examine is the color: white is a symbol of purity, while also a symbol of otherworldliness. The white stag in Pwyll penduc Dyfed has a white body with red ears–the typical colors of otherworld creatures (the hounds of Arawn are also this color).

It is also associated with the sun; in Christian iconography, the stag appears with the sun between its horns. Earlier gods associated with the stag were also nature deities: Cernunnos, Fionn, Gwynn ap Nudd. Santa Claus–that half-memory of Odin/Thor–is drawn by eight reindeer–who may or may not be white. (If they live at the North Pole, they most likely are😉 The deer, finally, was a source of life, an important resource for early man. Ultimately, the white stag is not only a creature of the gods, but is a god himself, symbolizing the creative life force of the universe–sex, life, and also death…”

and then –

the mysterious grafitti tag: ‘ANOK2’

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“Akkadian – ‘ANOK’

“Fire and smoke poured from the mountain and the earth shook…

The entire Community of Israel stood together in awe at the foot of Sinai as the Divine Presence thrust them into profound revelation.

The thunder of awakening surged through each heart and mind as a transcendent voice spoke out: Anochi Ha-Shem Elokecha.

The literal translation of this thunder is:

“I am The Name, your God”

Whereas the people of Israel received this realization in an explosive flash, we can receive this truth gradually by unpacking and contemplating the mystic teachings in these three words: Anochi is the Divine ‘I’ —

a description of the Divine Self.

Hashem – as in “The Name” refers to God’s attribute of Infinity, that is ‘beyond’ and transcendent. Elokecha, (also called Elokim,) is a plural term, referring to the Divinity that interfaces with the finite world of multiplicity: meaning, “your personal G-d.”

The limited human ego / ‘I’ is called ani—composed of the Hebrew letters aleph, nun, and yud. When these letters are rearranged to aleph, yud, nun they spell ayin, meaning “nothing” or emptiness.

We refer to the Infinite as ayin because from the perspective
of finite, Infinity is intangible, it is no-thing, empty of “things” , conversely, from the perspective of the Infinite, the finite is nothing—the ego does not exist.

The Infinite and finite are thus in perpetual
tension and conflict.

The word anochi, as in the Divine “I” consists of the word ani, plus the letter kuf- symbolic of word kester meaning the Crown, the Ultimate.

When the letters of anochi are rearranged, they spell k’ani, meaning “like an ani” or, “like an ‘I’.” Anochi, the Ultimate “I” is like the ego ‘I’. The Ultimate “I” is not elided with our personal self, yet “Anochi” invites us to extend the metaphor of “personal self” to its fullest expression as a part of the Ultimate Divine Self.

Anochi is a synonym for etzem or atzmus, meaning “Essence”—the ultimate context and totality of Reality. Essence is no-thing and every-thing, and yet it is neither nothing nor everything. Descriptive names do not apply to atzmus because even the concept of “Infinity” is, by definition, a limitation. Although Essence is beyond the finite and the Infinite, it also embraces and constitutes both of them.

For this reason, Essence holds the key to resolving the existential tension between the finite and the Infinite. The “I” of Anochi is not only the I of existence, manifestation or form, it is also the “I” of thing, and the “I” of no-thing, the “I” of finite and the “I” of infinite, the “I” of fullness and the “I” of emptiness.

As the ancients received the revelation of Anochi, they experienced their own limited human existence and the unlimited Divine Existence in the absence of conflict. In this revelation, there was no duality, only Unity. Nothing exists outside of Essence, thus Essence cannot be “experienced” ― self – consciousness distances the mind and self from the experience itself.

Together, Every- thing and No-thing become a metaphor of Essence; Essence alone is not a metaphor. Every gate is a gate to Essence, and every practice is a practice of Essence. And yet, there are no gates, no practices to reach Essence. We cannot become that which we already are.

The process may be simply a matter of revelation.” also…

in ancient egypt… ANOK = “anarchy“…

http://anarchy101.org/user/anok

Anoka, MN Drownings, Jun 1890

Posted October 8th, 2007 by Stu Beitler

THREE WERE DROWNED

Two Girls Lose Their Lives Trying to Save a Brother.

A terrible case of accidental drowning occurred one mile and a half above Anoka, Minn., on the Rum River. The following are the victims:

MISS LIZZIE MURPHY and MISS NELLIE MAHONEY and the latter’s brother, JOHNNIE MAHONEY, aged respectively twenty, seventeen and eleven.

They were in bathing and the little boy got beyond his depth. In trying to save him the girls went under, and they were all drowned together.

The Cranbury Press New Jersey 1890-06-20
*Researched and Transcribed by Stu Beitler.

Thank you, Stu!

– “Anoka”…

http://footprintsattheriversedge.blogspot.com/2009/04/041709-jelani-brinson-mn-missing.html

“The site which is now Anoka was first settled by immigrants in 1844. By the mid-1850s Anoka had grown to include a school, a store and a flour mill.

In 1856, C. C. Andrews described Anoka as a “large and handsome village” and noted that pine logs were floated down the Rum River to sawmills there.

The city was formally incorporated in 1878. The name Anoka was derived from two Indian words. The native Dakota used A-NO-KA-TAN-HAN, meaning “on both sides”, or “from both sides”, referring to its location on the banks of the Rum River.

The native Ojibwa used ON-O-KAY, meaning “working waters”…

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Greg Hart went into the waters,

And, in his desolate waste, he was reborn – ‘The Eagle’…

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And he became a symbol;
totemic even by the time he was drained
of all he ever was or would be…

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“…I also wanted to mention that one of the “tag” words associated with Gregory Hart should be the word EAGLE. The police thought that Gregory fell off the Eagle Bridge…”

25 Eagle St…

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Butchers Block Mills…

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Eagle Bridge…

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Now…

Sunil Tripathi disappeared 3 years later, on 3/13/2013, a date that is TO THE VERY DAY, three years AFTER the disappearance of Gregory Hart, “the eagle”, and Sunil disappears wearing a Philadelphia Eagles Hat…

And Sunil disappeared from ANGELL ST, on the EAST SIDE…

And I believe, unlike Greg Hart…

Sunil chose to go “into the water”.

But why?

Alchemy.

The marraige of 2 Ritualz –

“Trust” and “Love”.

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Sunil disappeared in March of 2013…

He left the rest of us, from Fox Point, on the EAST SIDE of Providence, RI.

Greg Hart disappeared in March of 2010…

He left the rest of us, from Fox Place, on the WEST SIDE of Providence, RI,

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“you are a detective, you arent allowed to
believe in coincidences anymore…”

– Commissioner Jim Gordon.

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The deaths of Greg Hart and Sunil Tripathi, in my research…

are related.

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Period.

This is all a part of DARK AND LIGHT RITUALZ,
ancient practices of vengeance and rebirth,
of the most sacred and profane order…

And, I believe this is taking place all over our wurld…

While we sleep…

Well, most of us.

Some of us, have felt this shifting consciousness for some time.

So…

Now.

Back to the EAGLE:

The eagle may generally be interpreted as a symbol of vitality or even “the Resurrection”. This is based upon the early belief that the eagle, unlike other birds, periodically renewed its plumage and its youthful vigor by flying near the sun and then plunging into the water. This interpretation is further borne out by Psalm 103:5:

‘…thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s…’

The eagle is also used to represent the new life begun at the baptismal font and the Christian soul strengthened by grace. ‘But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles . . .’ [Isaiah 40:31].

The eagle is said to have the ability to soar until it is lost to sight, and still retain its ability to gaze into the blazing midday sun. For this reason, it has come to symbolize Christ.

In a more general sense, it symbolizes those who are just; or stands for the virtues of courage, faith, and contemplation. More rarely, when it is depicted as a bird of prey, the eagle suggests the demon who ravishes souls, or the sins of pride and worldly power. The eagle also symbolizes generosity.

It was believed that the eagle, no matter how great its hunger, always left half its prey to the birds that followed. The eagle is the particular attribute of St. John the Evangelist.

The vision of Ezekiel 1:5, 10:

“. . . out of the midst thereof came the likeness of four living creatures. ..as for the likeness of their faces, they four had the face of a man, and the face of a lion . . . the face of an ox . . . the face of an eagle,”

This is interpreted as referring to the four evangelists.

Because St. John, in his Gospel, soared upward in his contemplation of the Divine nature of the Saviour, the eagle became his symbol.

In a more general sense, the eagle came to represent the inspiration of the Gospels.

It is from this symbolic interpretation that the lectern, from which the Gospels are read, is often given the form of a winged eagle…”

Greg Hart’s remote and empty vessel was dumped and, again as a symbol, it was left to float like waste…

down a flooded, muddy river into a City stranded by consequence.

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Greg Hart… Once so vital, now…grist for the mill.

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Oil for a machine…

A machine, full of teeth…he never saw coming…

Simply because –

He didnt speak the language.
He didnt know how to see the signs.
He didnt know how to read the terrain.

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“swine”

bible:

http://www.answering-christianity.com/abdullah_smith/jesus_broke_the_law.htm

“The Gospels show Jesus breaking the laws of the Torah. According to Matthew and Mark, Jesus said that all foods are clean, but the Jewish Law clearly prohibits the consumption of pork!

Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man. (Matthew 15:11)
“Are you so dull?” he asked. “Don’t you see that nothing that enters a man from the outside can make him ‘unclean’? For it doesn’t go into his heart but into his stomach, and then out of his body.” (In saying this, Jesus declared all foods “clean.”) He went on: “What comes out of a man is what makes him ‘unclean.’ (Mark 7:18-20)

Notice how the deceptive editors placed a note (in brackets) claiming that Jesus made all foods clean. This is clearly false, and Jesus never uttered these words. The Gospels were written under the influence of Paul, who rejected the Jewish Law (Hebrews 5:13, Galatians 3:13)

The Gentile writers fabricated these words to make Jesus say that all foods are clean, thus supporting the Pauline doctrine. According to Matthew 5:17-20, 23:23, Jesus came to preach the Jewish Law, and what does the Jewish Law say about eating pork?

And the swine, though he divide the hoof, and be clovenfooted, yet he cheweth not the cud; he [is] unclean to you.
Of their flesh shall ye not eat, and their carcase shall ye not touch; they [are] unclean to you. (Leviticus 11:7-8)

And the swine, because it divideth the hoof, yet cheweth not the cud, it [is] unclean unto you: ye shall not eat of their flesh, nor touch their dead carcase.
These ye shall eat of all that [are] in the waters: all that have fins and scales shall ye eat: (Deu 14:8-9)

The Bible prohibits the eating of pork. Jesus never made permissible the consumption of ‘all’ foods, it was a Pauline innovation by the Gospel writers.

The Gnostic leader Marcion (d 140 CE) said that Jewish scribes were corrupting the Gospels by adding Jewish material into them. This proves that the four Gospels were originally composed by Gentile (pagan) writers.

Jesus only ate kosher meat and was forbidden to eat pig’s flesh.

Jesus said that he had come to uphold the law and not to destroy it one jot or one tithe. Jesus was educated in the synagogue in Jerusalem from the age of twelve. He preached in the synagogue. He used to keep the synagogue clean. No Christian today can be found performing these actions. How many Christians have been even been circumcised in the manner that Jesus was? The services now held in today’s churches were developed long after Jesus had disappeared. Many of them come directly from the pagan Graeco-Roman mythological rites. The prayers they use are not the prayers which Jesus made. The hymns they sing are not the praises which Jesus sung. Due to the innovations of Paul and his followers, there is no revealed teaching left as to what to eat and what not to eat. Anyone given a “Christian education” today eats what he feels like. Yet Jesus and his true followers only ate kosher meat and were forbidden to eat pig’s flesh”. (Jesus, Prophet of Islam, 1992 edition, p. 199-200)

The Gospels imply that eating pork is forbidden, since Jesus murdered over 2,000 pigs by drowning them in the sea, and he will destroy the pigs on his Second Coming.

And he said unto them, Go. And when they were come out, they went into the herd of swine: and, behold, the whole herd of swine ran violently down a steep place into the sea, and perished in the waters. (Matthew 8:32, Mark 5:13)…”

paganism:

‘white swine’

http://witchesandpagans.com/EasyBlog/samhain-swine.html

http://www.iswasandwillbe.com/What_Is_The_Spiritual_Significance_Of_Swine.php

“black swine”

A once-nomadic people who originated in India and often refer to themselves as Roma, Gypsies have long occupied the bottom of Europe’s social scale. Enslaved in the Middle Ages and gassed by the Nazis during World War II, they are suffering a new wave of violence and discrimination. Since 1989, skinheads and their sympathizers have killed at least 38 Gypsies in the Czech Republic.

In a particularly egregious case on the night of Feb. 15, two skinheads attacked Helen Bihariovo, 26, a Roma mother of four, in the mountain town of Vrchlabi. They threw her into a river swollen with melting snow, shouting, “Let’s make the black swine swim.”

A neighbor, journalist Eliska Pilarova, heard Bihariovo’s cries and tried to save her. But Bihariovo slipped from Pilarova’s grasp as the women shot through a deep mill sluice. Her body was found two days later, more than a mile downstream.

“She was a very good-looking girl, like a doll. She was of course a pickpocket, but I will not judge it,” says Pilarova, 48, who was injured in the rescue attempt. “But the response from the public has been: ‘Well, it’s one pickpocket less.’ ”

“roma swine”

http://www.amren.com/features/2013/02/you-swine-happy-now/

blacktrumpetministries.org

“Easter is a day that is honered by nearly all of contemporary Christianity and is used to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ.
The holiday often involves a church service at sunrise, a feast which includes an “Easter Ham”, decorated eggs and stories about rabbits.

Those who love truth learn to ask questions, and many questions must be asked regarding the holiday of Easter.

Is it truly the day when Jesus arose from the dead? Where did all of the strange customs come from, which have nothing to do with the resurrection of our Saviour?

The purpose of this tract is to help answer those questions, and to help those who seek truth to draw their own conclusions.

The first thing we must understand is that professing Christians were not the only ones who celebrated a festival called “Easter.”

“Ishtar”, which is pronounced “Easter” was a day that commemorated the resurrection of one of their gods that they called “Tammuz”, who was believed to be the only begotten son of the moon-goddess and the sun-god.

In those ancient times, there was a man named Nimrod, who was the grandson of one of Noah’s son named Ham.

Ham had a son named Cush who married a woman named Semiramis.Cush and Semiramis then had a son named him “Nimrod.”

After the death of his father, Nimrod married his own mother and became a powerful King.

The Bible tells of of this man, Nimrod, in Genesis 10:8-10 as follows: “And Cush begat Nimrod: he began to be a mighty one in the earth. He was a mighty hunter before the Lord: wherefore it is said, even as Nimrod the mighty hunter before the Lord. And the beginning of his kingdom was Babel, and Erech, and Accad,and Calneh, in the land of Shinar.”

Nimrod became a god-man to the people and Semiramis, his wife and mother, became the powerful Queen of ancient Babylon.

Nimrod was eventually killed by an enemy, and his body was cut in pieces and sent to various parts of his kingdom.

Semiramis had all of the parts gathered, except for one part that could not be found.

That missing part was his reproductive organ. Semiramis claimed that Nimrod could not come back to life without it and told the people of Babylon that Nimrod had ascended to the sun and was now to be called “Baal”, the sun god.

Queen Semiramis also proclaimed that Baal would be present on earth in the form of a flame, whether candle or lamp, when used in worship.

Semiramis was creating a mystery religion, and with the help of Satan, she set herself up as a goddess.

Semiramis claimed that she was immaculately conceived.

She taught that the moon was a goddess that went through a 28 day cycle and ovulated when full.

She further claimed that she came down from the moon in a giant moon egg that fell into the Euphrates River.

This was to have happened at the time of the first full moon after the spring equinox.

Semiramis became known as “Ishtar” which is pronounced “Easter”, and her moon egg became known as “Ishtar’s” egg.”

Ishtar soon became pregnant and claimed that it was the rays of the sun-god Baal that caused her to conceive.

The son that she brought forth was named Tammuz.

Tammuz was noted to be especially fond of rabbits, and they became sacred in the ancient religion, because Tammuz was believed to be the son of the sun-god, Baal. Tammuz, like his supposed father, became a hunter.

The day came when Tammuz was killed by a wild pig.

Queen Ishtar told the people that Tammuz was now ascended to his father, Baal, and that the two of them would be with the worshippers in the sacred candle or lamp flame as Father, Son and Spirit.

Ishtar, who was now worshipped as the “Mother of God and Queen of Heaven”, continued to build her mystery religion.

The queen told the worshippers that when Tammuz was killed by the wild pig, some of his blood fell on the stump of an evergreen tree, and the stump grew into a full new tree overnight. This made the evergreen tree sacred by the blood of Tammuz.

She also proclaimed a forty day period of time of sorrow each year prior to the anniversary of the death of Tammuz.

During this time, no meat was to be eaten.

Worshippers were to meditate upon the sacred mysteries of Baal and Tammuz, and to make the sign of the “T” in front of their hearts as they worshipped.

They also ate sacred cakes with the marking of a “T” or cross on the top.

Every year, on the first Sunday after the first full moon after the spring equinox, a celebration was made.

It was Ishtar’s Sunday and was celebrated with rabbits and eggs.

Ishtar also proclaimed that because Tammuz was killed by a pig, that a pig must be eaten on that Sunday.

By now, the readers of this tract should have made the connection that paganism has infiltrated the contemporary “Christian” churches, and further study indicates that this paganism came in by way of the Roman Catholic System.

The truth is that Easter has nothing whatsoever to do with the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ.

We also know that Easter can be as much as three weeks away from the Passover, because the pagan holiday is always set as the first Sunday after the first full moon after the spring equinox.

Some have wondered why the word “Easter” is in the the King James Bible.

It is because Acts, chapter 12, tells us that it was the evil King Herod, who was planning to celebrate Easter, and not the Christians.

The true Passover and pagan Easter sometimes coincide, but in some years, they are a great distance apart.

So much more could be said, and we have much more information for you, if you are a seeker of the truth.

We know that the Bible tells us in John 4:24, “God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.”

The truth is that the forty days of Lent, eggs, rabbits,hot cross buns and the Easter ham have everything to do with the ancient pagan religion of Mystery Babylon.These are all antichrist activities!

Satan is a master deceiver, and has filled the lives of well-meaning, professing Christians with idolatry.

These things bring the wrath of God upon children of disobedience, who try to make pagan customs of Baal worship Christian.

You must answer for your activities and for what you teach your children.

These customs of Easter honor Baal, who is also Satan, and is still worshipped as the “Rising Sun” and his house is the “House of the Rising Sun.”

How many churches have “sunrise services” on Ishtar’s day and face the rising sun in the East?

How many will use colored eggs and rabbit stories, as they did in ancient Babylon…?”

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Poor Gregory Hart…

He crossed the river.
He crossed the bridge.
He crossed the trackz.

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Where there be monsters…

And Greg Hart did not have what the girlz call –

“Safe Passage”.

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And this is all hypothesized with the deepest sympathy, loving regard and, actually – Hope.

Because in the end…

Nothing sinks.

None of us.

From birth to death and hopefully beyond…

Every one of us – floats.

Even in the darkness.

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“the double dotted i”

“…Diaeresis is a method of definition based on partitition which occurs in the Platonic dialogues Phaedrus, Sophist, Statesman and Philebus…

It is a means of reaching a definition by which a large group is continually divided into relatively equal parts until the definition has been found. For example, in the Sophist (§235B), the Eleatic Stranger is examining illusions, which consist of words and “visual objects.”

By using diaeresis, he divides visual objects, by which it becomes clear he means works of art, into two categories: eikastikē technē, the art of making likenesses or eikones; and phantastikē technē, the art of creating illusionary appearances. The Stranger is much more fond of the former…the latter are only created to produce an appearance of beauty.

The diaeresis and the umlaut are diacritics marking two distinct phonological phenomena.

The diaeresis represents the phenomenon also known as diaeresis, or hiatus, in which a vowel letter is not pronounced as part of a digraph or diphthong. The diaeresis indicates that two adjoining letters that would normally form a digraph and be pronounced as one are instead to be read as separate vowels in two syllables.

The diaeresis indicates that a vowel should be pronounced apart from the letter that precedes it. For example, in the spelling coöperate, the diaeresis reminds the reader that the word has four syllables co-op-er-ate, not three, *coop-er-ate… In British English this usage has been obsolete for many years, and in US English, although it persisted for longer, it is also now considered archaic…”

…And especially in the light…

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ps.

here are a few of my obssesively comprehensive links to the exhaustive Greg Hart / SMILEY KILLERS research and wurk i conducted over the course of the previous year –

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/03/29/smile/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/05/07/smile-like-you-mean-it/

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/04/14/greg-hart-and-the-smiley-faces-left-behind/

This one in particular, i LOVE.

This was from a night i investigated The One Fox Place location Greg Hart disappeared from…

And when i first met my awe-inspiring friend amd “alie” –

who I call –

“Djinn”.

Because, well…
this motherfucker is one.

So, there.

Ha.

https://mindandmotive.wordpress.com/2013/06/17/the-djinn/

‘for greggy…’

xo.

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